As sad and scary as this Coronovirus seems to be, people can see the positive side it brings us. I don't want to think that God is punishing people, but for once, there are a lot of people who are turning back to God. Pollution has been lessen. People has turned back to their homes and families. Time that has been so precious, has been given outmost importance by spending them with their loved ones instead of working their ass out. Money has lessen its value. Health now is the most important thing that people treasure the most. Healthworkers has become the new heroes. Frontliners has gained recognition, finally. And a lot more.
Sometimes, I feel sad. The plans and dreams we have in life has come to a sudden halt. The world is on freeze. We cannot plan, we cannot move forward. We are all asked to stay indoors. But remember, no matter how hard it seems like, it is okay. We are safe. We are healthy. We are at home. And most especially, we are alive!
Few months ago, I left my job in UAE because I was ready to start our new life in another place. For 8 years, I have built a comfort zone there. However, for personal reasons, we need to keep moving forward. I know a lot has been expecting us to get to US as soon as possible. But not everything we plan is under our control. We were already at the last step of our immigration process as we were just waiting for our Interview to be conducted. However, few months later, there came a chaotic situation in the Embassy that a lot got refusals and "at hold status". It was the most stressful time of our lives. I thought we were so much tested with our patience and faith. Nevertheless, I never thought that it was God who had worked big time to protect us from this bigger mess. And yes, we were not one of them, thank God!
When I knew the chaos in Manila Embassy, I flew right away to S. Korea and tried to transfer our case there. There was a resistance that happened. Then it all ended when the US finally decided to hold the immigration process temporarily. I went home. Just the day I landed back home, Korea shut its doors as Coronavirus hit them hard. Travel ban happened just a day after I reached my loved ones' arms. I felt relieved and said, "God, it was you! You saved me, again!"
Few days after, we were still running after our errands, I got hired as a USRN home (Phil) based job. I don't wanna grab it because we were focused on moving out of the country. I told my husband that we should keep moving fast because I can feel that there will be a lockdown in Manila. He was hesitant and thought I was crazy. He said there is no outbreak in the Philippines and given that our country is very hot, the virus cannot stay alive. I still pushed him through. I took the exams with no review (haha) and I passed. Yes, this is an attempt to go to another country (not the US-yet). We finished the visa processing up to the Medical Exam stage. And right after we did, tah dah! Lockdown it was! You know how many "I TOLD YOU SOs," I have given my husband? yeah it was deafening he said. Though our visa is not yet released, I am glad it is now just for releasing and I know after the lockdown, everything will turn out right.
Well today, as I am sitting down here at home, working at the most convenient place with no fears of getting infected, I felt so relieved, loved and blessed. God you are so amazing!
However, whenever I scroll on my newsfeed, it breaks my heart to see a lot of people suffering in pain, hunger, threat and in panic. The world is broken. Sometimes I thought, " God, why didn't You let me help out when the world needs me the most this time? I could have been a nurse treating people today." But then, with a sigh, I thought that maybe God knows I could not handle the situation. Maybe I have no super immune system to combat the virus. Maybe I am not strong enough to survive the crisis. And because of that, I could not thank Him enough.
Watching the news about the US is heartbreaking. Their health system is breaking down. THIS oh this is answer of my many WHYS.
Yesterday, I got hired in an online job and I am smiling right now. What have I done so right in my previous life to receive God's favor this much? But still I pray. I pray for forgiveness of people, of myself and the whole world.
Remember that whatever happens to us right now, shall pass. Not so soon, but it will. Every denial is a protection, every delay is a blessing.
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